The first installation compiled for our larger project set to words in video format. From Combinatory Art in Motion: Lovers Dictionary : Blemish.
Owning my own personal power is something I take very seriously. Not only is this important in my work as a therapist, where equalizing the inherent power differential is a part of my theoretical lens, but it is important in other areas of my life as well and affects my marriage, my parenting, and my creative capacities. Believing in myself, owning my strengths, my limitations, my growth edges, helps me face down fear, which so often paralyzes me, especially artistically. I fear that I have nothing relevant to say and even less ability to execute it. It’s easier with therapy, the stance of humility is beneficial to reducing other peoples anxieties. With art, when I am planning or working on a piece I find that confidence and trust in myself are paramount. These are important in therapy as well, but it is not really about me, it is about others. Art brings me face to face with my self in a way that leaves me vulnerable. When I am able to overcome my fear and allow myself freedom to make mistakes, the result is often gratifying. It’s this personal power I hold onto when I begin to doubt.
This latest in the series of Meditating Possibilities seemed a fitting tribute to starting the new year. Thanks to my step son whose Captain America helmet was loaned for the sitting:)
Meditating Realities # 1
Graphite on Paper
9″ x 12″
Holly Suzanne, December 2012
Meditating Possibilities # 3
Holly Suzanne, 2012
As some of my readers have noted, I’ve been waiting for some kind of inspiration as of late, feeling bogged down and bound up with a long Christmas list of to-do”s. Typically, when this happens I find myself day dreaming, gazing, reading, or honestly DOING anything that isn’t directly creative in a zombie like procrastinating state, but thankfully, this is lifting, thanks in part to my husband who just happened to place one of my hats atop a Buddha statue that sits atop our built in buffet in the dining room. Often over the past few days, I’ve found myself gazing at it, captivated by the transformative reality the small hat claims, and so it was that yesterday I decided to play dress up so to speak with various hats from our wardrobe. In my dress series, I engaged the idea of identity via style and fashion particularly related to gender, but this dressing strikes me in another way. The Buddha statue adorned with various hats is an odd juxtaposition of physical and spiritual dimensions. It reminds me so of a phrase I read long ago as part of an essay on Liberation Theology that encouraged a spirituality where one’s “feet are planted in mid-air” (author unknown). In an odd way these works remind me of that. We are living after all, bound to our bodies, our vulnerabilities, our lives, and yet to transcend these things, to meditate and find peace requires a meditative other wordly stance often referred to as meditation. This is something I think of often, seeking to find balance in my life. In this case it appears, at least for the time being in this new series.
To see a book of the dress series with paintings by me and poetry by Nathan Filbert please visit: Paper Dolls: A Dress Series in Paint and Poetry
Untitled Poppy Collage # 3, 6″ x 9″, Encaustic, Repurposed Watercolor Painting on Rice Paper, Sharpie, Acrylic, on Board.
Untitled Poppy Collage # 4, 9″ x 12″, Encaustic, Repurposed Watercolor on Rice Paper, Acrylic, Sharpie, on Board.
In these works I started by cutting a failed watercolor painting on rice paper that I then collaged with an acrylic medium onto paper. When that was done I cut it into pieces and composed pieces on four separate panels. The panels had been painted previously as well and set aside. The collages were then assembled using encaustic medium, which is a wax medium applied with a certain technique. I added additional pieces of painted rice paper drawn on with a sharpie to add contrast to the composition.
If you are new to encaustic I suggest checking it out. I absolutely love encaustic. It can be mixed with pigment or used as a semi-transparent layer. I use bleached natural bees wax in these pieces to adhere layers of paper to my board, which was first painted. To see more of my encaustic work check out this link: http://hollysuzannefilbert.com/collections/42779.
Terra cotta sculpture bisque fired and then saw dust fired with red iron oxide and bone ash.
2012 5x 4×4 inches. Holly Suzanne